Wishing A Small Dropping For You


A 'small dropping' is like straining and straining to produce something and all that you get is this little kernel - and you feel so unproductive - and when people ask you how it is going you dejectedly say, "Nothing but rabbit turds".

This is how I've felt for years when it comes to straining to tweak all the many aspects needed to become my ideal self.  So here we are in 2018 and I'm 60 years old and asking myself, "If not now - when?" I mean, I've been working on some of this same shit for over 50 years!  So, feeling in the spirit of the new year, I strained and strained and produced a small dropping in the form of a quicksand metaphor of the goals and barriers I experience.

There was the quicksand composition and how that manifests - then what it's like to be in the quicksand followed by why do I give a fuck? and what am I going to do about it?  Let's take my physical body for instance - from YMCA exercise classes to Jazzercise to weight lifting to yoga to pilates - it has mostly continued to not be the body I wish I had.  My quicksand is being stuck in a physical body that is not toned and strong - and it manifests in not going places and not wanting to get dressed or only wearing yoga clothes which makes me feel disappointed in myself for not having more motivation and stops me from looking for a man to have a relationship with - who would want to get with this body?  Why do I give a fuck? because I want to get my self confidence back - I want to feel good about how I look in this body and to move with ease.  And what am I going to do about it?

I'm going to literally work my ass off!  This year I am taking the Bar Method Challenge for six weeks https://barmethod.com/locations/austin-downtown/ .  The kickoff was January 13th and they too had an exercise to help us set goals which consists of 5 areas:

  • Bar Method Class Goals
  • Outside of Barre Fitness Goals
  • Body Goals
  • Dietary Goals
  • Spiritual/Mental Wellness
My earlier insight gained from the Quicksand Method turned out to be a good basis for completing the Bar Method goals.
  • Quicksand composition
  • Manifests in
  • What I experience when I go into the quicksand
  • Why do I care? What do I truly want to obtain?
  • What am I going to do about it?
It turns out the goal that resonated the most with me fell under the Spiritual/Mental Wellness category - finding my voice to write about the things that matter to me - and exposing myself to the things in life that inspire me.  I'm off to a good start this week - attended a presentation and artist talk on print culture at the Big Medium http://bigmedium.org/ and a gallery show of Artifacts of Human Trafficking at Link & Pin Art Space http://linkpinart.com/.  I felt inspired by both events - ideas appeared - and the meaningfulness of life shone its light.

Now here I am - finding my voice - feeling inspired - and wishing a small dropping for you in your life soon!

Serendipitously - other great resources for setting goals appeared:

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