Hell Is Planning What To Eat

I think planning a trip to the grocery store is the real reason a lot of people become agoraphobic - I just feel paralyzed - which is why I end up darting to the store for a 'few things' several times a week and grabbing protein bars and cans of white tuna in water.  Sure, I have lots of experience with planning meals for special occasions and I'm really good at it - but here is the thing - I know I need to plan to spend the extra money to make all the recipes - whereas planning what to eat just for myself for an entire week - and let's not forget that it needs to be healthy too so I can drop a few pounds - well that mentally feels like an impossible feat - I mean, how can I pay for all this on my retirement salary?  And let's face it - how much fun is it to cook just for yourself?  Which is why I stick to steamed broccoli with cheese, protein shakes, and apples with natural peanut butter for instance - but I have to admit - this is not working.  I am staying around the same weight - which is about 10 pounds more than I want to weigh.  And I have to admit - I'm making excuses because I am lazy when it comes to preparing food for myself!

It's week two of the Bar Method Challenge (https://barmethod.com/locations/austin-downtown/) and I am doing great on the physical activity aspects - I am taking Bar Method class about 5 times a week and last Friday I added going to yoga class.  I had a Groupon for a month of unlimited yoga and it was going to expire in February and this is perfect timing because I do feel the need to do more stretching outside of Bar Method Class.  On Sunday my daughter used my guest pass to attend a Bar Method Class - she has told me a couple of times how she can feel the soreness in her triceps and quadriceps - so more evidence of how great these classes work the muscles!  So this week I will go to restorative/therapeutic yoga twice and the next week increase it to 3 times a week and help those sore muscles recover.

And now it is time to do something about what I eat & I feel like this lady in the picture to the left - but here goes!  My most favorite thing to consume is my morning coffee with hazelnut creamer (this is my substitute for crack cocaine!) I put in 3 tablespoons for each cup and I drink 3 cups and there are 35 calories per tablespoon - what a way to start my day with 315 calories and I really haven't 'eaten' anything yet!  I've decided that I need to build on success - so giving up my morning crack is not going to be the first step to my eating healthier and losing weight.



Here's what I feel comfortable doing this week (starting Wednesday):
  • One protein shake a day using coconut water and frozen fruit
  • One protein bar a day (20 grams of protein)
  • One salad or steamed vegetable a day
  • Something 'real' for dinner like sushi or soup
  • Small snack serving - probably pretzels (cause I love them)
  • Limit wine to maximum of 4 times a week - for a total of 8 glasses (I think this is 2 bottles)
I am already having the protein shake pretty regularly and I do eat a protein bar everyday too - so the changes this week will be to eat the damn salad instead of just looking at it when I open the fridge door - and the biggest change is to actually buy something real to eat for dinner instead of constantly searching for another 'bite' to eat and never being satisfied.  

Now, the wine I forgot to mention also includes dark chocolate consumption  - so I will also start counting calories tomorrow - and when the shock from that sets in - that should be great motivation to improve my eating plan for week 3 - I'm just trying to be realistic about what I will really commit to doing - so I feel good about committing to eating a real dinner and counting calories for this week.  I will also count cups of water - and that will help me hone in on making more drastic changes next week.





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